i think there's something wrong with me.
like i'm suppose to be studying hard but why am i taking it so easily..?!
its like i do my work, study. but i don't think i'm doing enough.
but then again, WHAT'S ENOUGH?!
this is so frustrating. i'll tell u what i did yesterday,
i memorized 2 themes out of 4 for geog. the end.
i cannot ta han myself.
i feel like dropping geog.
its so ahhhhhhhhhh.
i used to like it. but this yr, omg.
i either get c5 or c6!
last yr wasn't like this. :( urghs.
I AM TIRED. AWFULLY TIRED..
i can't WAIT for olevels to be FINISHEDD.
i can't wait for that day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
please. do come.
please................
i'm suffering.
by the way. now all hospital have this new rule that there can be only be 4 visitors per ward.
visiting hours: 12 to 2. and it applies everyday
thats so mean. and because of this reason, i could go visit her.
So, i skipped school today and went to the hospital to visit my grandma.
for some background info:
she has 4-6 months to live due to rapid brain deteriorating.
before all this happened, she was very mad with my mummy.
because our whole family refused to eat her food (which were offered to her gods)
so, in that way, she was named as the traitor of the family. blah blah.
lots of drama in there.
then suddenly, she could do simple stuff like showering, eating........... etc.
got her sent to the hospital. blah.........................
i didn't have the time to go visit until today.
my mummy said if i don't go soon, i don't think she would even rmb u.
so i went. honestly i wanted to cry.
she looked soooooooo different. like she just stares into space.
i asked her if she remembers me, she tries to talk but she can't. and thn she said jie yi.
thats my sister. seeing her becoming like this, made me feel sad.
i was closer to her than my father's side.
she was really nice (last time) until she started with her buddist thing.
she became really hot tempered.
since i was young, she would take care of me.
cook, give me birthday money ^^, she was really nice...................................
but what i saw in her today, was a lifeless person. she just stares at you.
she looked so different.
ok u know what?
i'm just gonna leave it to god.
its his will and not mine.
i'm just gonna do my part by giving it my best.
lord do whatever u want in my life.
cause, honestly, i dunno what to do in the future.
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