it has been a lonely weekend~
for 2 days, 24 hours spent at home.
cause had to study for amath, bio and chem spa. :(
i was thinking about how i have spent the first 3 months of sec4.
last yr, i was HATING sec 4 like crap! always always complaining!
i thought that sec 4 was gonna be like hell. like i have to be a total NERD.
haha! but now, i actually think its quite fun.
mainly its because of djt la. ^^
but maybe its also because this is the last yr i'm gonna spent my sch days with my friends..
i've learnt how to appreciate? :) sec 4 is definitely super stressful, since u are overloaded with
homework, tests, cca, tution, projects?
but when i think abt how i spent these 3 months,
honestly, it has been hard, but i didn't really complain as much as i expected to.
even though training as been super tough, surprisingly, i am able to cope pretty well.
in these 3 months, time passed like a rocket! zooooommmm, now its aldy march!
now, i want time to pass a little more slowly.. hehe!
i really really really really thank god for placing me in djt!
if i wasn't in djt, i can't imagine how i would have spent these 3 months.
i guess, its part of his plan.. and i'm thankful for that..
i still remembered i almost wanted to quit djt so many times.
because i was afraid of trying, afraid my studies would suffer, afraid of pulling the grp down..
in the end, i prayed and said " if you want me to be in djt, then please help me "
and indeed, he has helped me countless times!
giving me that extra bit of strength every time i was tired..
keeping me positive.. blessing me with such great team mates..
without them saying " becky, you can do it! ". " go becky ugh " " from now onwards, no whining!" " stop saying u can't do it!". LOL.
i think i would have given up on myself. and thats why i love them so much.
i have learnt so much from djt. and its truly a blessing and a wonderful experience to be in djt.
the last yr of gym, and i'm enjoying every minute of it.
having priscilla beside me is definitely a challenge. haha!
sitting beside her for 2 years..
i know she will never read this. LOL!
i must say she has kept me entertained during class time.
keeping me awake.. a friend whom i can share all my secrets.
but also there are times when i am super pissed with you.
like irritated and ahhhhhh! just feel like sitting somewhere far..
sorry pris! i am surprised when you said you have never been angry with me.
i felt a little sorry. because like i always treated you according to my mood or emotions.
like if i'm in a bad mood, i would totally ignore you or just ans you with just one word.
i dunno how u can tolerate all of that. on top of that, you are alright with it!
somehow, you know how to react to all of these.. so that you won't make me any more angry.
and if i'm in a good mood, i would play with u.. like i feel so bad.
its like you have to put up with my behaviour and i never thought about how u feel.
i really feel so sorry!!
like when you told me how swollen your eyes are coz u cried last night.
and i just said " your eyes looks normal to me "
or when i said " sorry, i'm in a bad mood today. don't talk to me " you really listen to me.
you just wait till my mood is better.
sorry for being so cold.. i'll try to control my emotions a little better. i think i've been a bad friend. i hope you know i do treasure a friend like you. and i'll definitely miss sitting next to you!
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