Written @ 오후 11:29
well well well.. Its MONDAY the first day of the week.
ok i'll tell you how scared i am for djt k?
COMPETITION is in like 2 WEEKSSSSSS!!
1) i am scared i will feel nervous on the comp mat
2) i am scared i will screw my paos
3) i am scared we won't win ): (first)
4) i am scared i will make STUPID mistakes
5) i am scared we are not qi enough
6) i am scared of the pressure, the atmosphere, the expectations!!
7) i am scared because that would be the very LAST LAST routine
8) i am scared of the other schools
9) i am scared i will let djt down
10) i am scared like something might go wrong just before comp like an injury or something
BUTTTTTTTTTTT! i must NOT think about all of these.
seriously. cannot. no becky.
god will be on our side to protect us. nothing will go wrong. no no no.
it will not. ahhhhhhhhhh..
but i'm still scared. :(
sucky feeling. i don't want it to end. i want djt training to last longer.
after 2 weeks, its gonna be OVER.. and i know the feeling is gonna be like shit.
it worst thing is to screw up. I DON'T WANT TO SCREW UPPPPPPPP.
I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY WANNA WIN FIRSTTTTTTT!
DJT WE CAN DO IT KK?
JIAYOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!
Written @ 오전 12:06
I AM FINE NOW ^^
YESSSS! fever gone, sore throat GONE! flu GONE!!!
really really thank god!! :)
just that i got a bit cough. but whatever.
eating junk food helps i guess. hehe!
i ate A LOT of chips, biscuits, pasta, hot dog?..
HAHAHA! i dunno why but i crave for all the food that i'm not suppose to eat~
my mum kinda understands, so she didn't cook porridge for me (:
yay! i'm really really HAPPY!
this means i can train on monday! like properly!
jiayou dajiti! last 2 weeks.
i think i'll cry after comp. a week without training with u guys would feel so weird!
Written @ 오후 11:14
I'm sick with flu, sore throat, and fever.. hate it! esp the flu..so for the WHOLE day, i felt so horrible and just wanted to go home.
but i didn't wanna miss lessons, so somehow i stayed on.
training was even tougher. my muscles felt weak and shitty and
when your body is like weak and only wants to rest, my mind and heart just wanted to train so badly.
ahhh.. 10 more practices!!! ONLY~ ( according to edrea )
my mum doesn't want me to go training tmr. wl.
i understand la. but i really really wanna train. ah ya. don't care. i'm still gonna train tmr.
Written @ 오후 7:20
Today's training was a bit down~
mainly it was because of what reylyn told us.
she said that kezia said that st nicks djt is like damn good.
thn when we heard it, like our heart kinda skipped a bit and i guess we felt disappointed.
so yeah.. training was a little screwed today.
BUT STILL.. we must think that we are like super good ok?!!
i think we are lost our confidence and that spirit coz we think we can't beat st nicks..
BUT WE CAN! coz i believe that all our hard work will pay off. i'm sure it will!
JIAYOU DJTTTTTTT!
do u think like st nicks and rgs ppl are stalking other djt's blogs?!
like what jayna does. hehehehehe! sorry jayna, but if they do, its quite scary and freaky.
hahaha!
Written @ 오전 12:34
March hols just flew past..
my stomach feels weird now. like indigestion?
i hope it recovers~
sian. still must study for chinese test..
Written @ 오전 2:02
i'm jealous that everyone have soooo much time during the march hols to revise..
its irritating. thn they brag on how much they have studied. wl.
i wish i could have 30 hours in a day.
6 hours-gym
6 hours-sleep
8 hours-study
6 hours-sch
4 hours-FREEEE ( includes travelling time+eating+breaks blah )
life wouldn't be that busy. but still, god made 24 hours in a day for a purpose i guess.
so no complains! i'll just have to burn midnight oil today.
GO becky!
Written @ 오전 2:00
i should seriously go to china to improve my chinese!!
Written @ 오후 6:59
Sometimes, actually its most of the time, the only thing i wake up and think about is - djt.
this march hols were crazily packed. chinese intensive, training, tution..
but i think we improved in terms of our stamina and consistency :)
today jo brought a vacuum cleaner for the gym mat. haha!
so nice of her. i guess we were sick and tired of the disgusting mats we have been using.
cleaning was kinda fun. hehe. picking up all the hair ( i know it sounds sick but yeah )
i think lao shi likes us a lot a lot. coz we work hard, have manners, and we're nice to her.
hahaha!
i can't imagine spending a whole wk without training with djt.
omg. that would suck soooooo much!!!!~
Written @ 오후 4:59
today's training lasted for 6 hours..
exhausted now~
but i love djt! (: hehehe!
i'm tired, gonna sleep for awhile. zai jian!
Written @ 오후 10:58
its already the second day of chinese intensive.
ONE more day!! just one more...
chinese intensive is tiring! like a real exam kinda thing..
its gd la.. but exhausting.. ):
ahh. tmr is gonna be a long long day. thurs is worse.
fri, should i go out to eat at night?
Written @ 오후 11:26
ok this is gonna be a pretty depressing post.
i'm really starting to get stressed out abt olevels.
my term 1 results isn't that good.
and like i dunno how la~
chinese olevels is in 2 mths and like i really wanna do well for it!
mye is like in 1 mth?!
comp in 1 mth! at first i thought i'm handling it pretty well.
but now NOO! coz i need to do all the revising!
and the work load is piling up up UP UP!
i'm super dupper stress now!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Written @ 오후 10:40
well, honestly i didn't look forward to the mini yog today.
i tot it would be so stupid to play water soccer.
i even tot of ponning sch. but ah ya. since its the last yr, just go la. :)
it was actually fun eh! although super tiring..
gym was ok :)
had dental appointment. i can't believe that i was so tired that i slept when the dentist was sort of shaping my tooth? haha. i dunno what she was doing.
went home and nearly forgt i had tution at night.
rushed.. and now, i'm exhausted! gotta pack my chem file. sian.
nights
Written @ 오후 11:41
yes yes yes!
chem spa is overrrrr! its over! its over!
i think i did alright :)
and it was easier than i expected it to be~
so yeah :)
Written @ 오후 10:47
Tmr is chem spa! actually i'm not scared now. but i know tmr i'll start freaking out.
haha! i really hope everything would turn out fine. :)
i skipped tution today. and i think i screwed today's amath test.
this week's tests have been quite tough eh. maybe coz i nvr study la..
i dunno why but i'm feeling quite numbed. like so many tests until i don't feel scared?
or maybe next wk is march hols aldy!
ok. the only thing i look forward to is able to have a little more sleep..
other than that, its like normal sch la.
chinese INTENSIVE! omg. doing chinese for 8am-12noon!
i'll get sick of chinese..
Written @ 오전 2:50
it has been a lonely weekend~
for 2 days, 24 hours spent at home.
cause had to study for amath, bio and chem spa. :(
i was thinking about how i have spent the first 3 months of sec4.
last yr, i was HATING sec 4 like crap! always always complaining!
i thought that sec 4 was gonna be like hell. like i have to be a total NERD.
haha! but now, i actually think its quite fun.
mainly its because of djt la. ^^
but maybe its also because this is the last yr i'm gonna spent my sch days with my friends..
i've learnt how to appreciate? :) sec 4 is definitely super stressful, since u are overloaded with
homework, tests, cca, tution, projects?
but when i think abt how i spent these 3 months,
honestly, it has been hard, but i didn't really complain as much as i expected to.
even though training as been super tough, surprisingly, i am able to cope pretty well.
in these 3 months, time passed like a rocket! zooooommmm, now its aldy march!
now, i want time to pass a little more slowly.. hehe!
i really really really really thank god for placing me in djt!
if i wasn't in djt, i can't imagine how i would have spent these 3 months.
i guess, its part of his plan.. and i'm thankful for that..
i still remembered i almost wanted to quit djt so many times.
because i was afraid of trying, afraid my studies would suffer, afraid of pulling the grp down..
in the end, i prayed and said " if you want me to be in djt, then please help me "
and indeed, he has helped me countless times!
giving me that extra bit of strength every time i was tired..
keeping me positive.. blessing me with such great team mates..
without them saying " becky, you can do it! ". " go becky ugh " " from now onwards, no whining!" " stop saying u can't do it!". LOL.
i think i would have given up on myself. and thats why i love them so much.
i have learnt so much from djt. and its truly a blessing and a wonderful experience to be in djt.
the last yr of gym, and i'm enjoying every minute of it.
having priscilla beside me is definitely a challenge. haha!
sitting beside her for 2 years..
i know she will never read this. LOL!
i must say she has kept me entertained during class time.
keeping me awake.. a friend whom i can share all my secrets.
but also there are times when i am super pissed with you.
like irritated and ahhhhhh! just feel like sitting somewhere far..
sorry pris! i am surprised when you said you have never been angry with me.
i felt a little sorry. because like i always treated you according to my mood or emotions.
like if i'm in a bad mood, i would totally ignore you or just ans you with just one word.
i dunno how u can tolerate all of that. on top of that, you are alright with it!
somehow, you know how to react to all of these.. so that you won't make me any more angry.
and if i'm in a good mood, i would play with u.. like i feel so bad.
its like you have to put up with my behaviour and i never thought about how u feel.
i really feel so sorry!!
like when you told me how swollen your eyes are coz u cried last night.
and i just said " your eyes looks normal to me "
or when i said " sorry, i'm in a bad mood today. don't talk to me " you really listen to me.
you just wait till my mood is better.
sorry for being so cold.. i'll try to control my emotions a little better. i think i've been a bad friend. i hope you know i do treasure a friend like you. and i'll definitely miss sitting next to you!
Written @ 오전 2:36
k i think i'm gonna sleep!
Written @ 오전 2:04
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